Willing to Rest for now
Posted: under October, 2009.
Tags: change of seasons, contentment, crash, downturn Comments (9)
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
The weather has turned cooler and overcast these days. Summer is over.
It seems every year that in the change of seasons from summer to fall, I experience some downturn. Some years have been worse than others. This fall so far has been, I think, the gentlest one in over a decade.
I haven’t gone out even for a walk, in over a week. That has something to do with windy, rainy weather. It also has to do with a lower level of energy. And a recent reminder of how much I don’t like to crash. So I am playing it safe at present.
Unlike other autumns, though, I feel some … contentment with this quieter life. I don’t really feel a desire to go uptown, for instance. To do the grocery shopping. To scan the streets for someone I know.
The loneliness is not nearly what it was such a short time ago. That has everything to do with having formed friendships on the net, and with having some work online as well.
I no longer fear that if I disappeared, nobody would notice. I no longer believe that if I were to vanish, nobody would come to look for me.
This is a source of contentment for me.
Tags: change of seasons, contentment, crash, downturn
Found your blog through the empowHer site. I have lupus with CFS and Fibro. I was diagnosed with CFS in my 20’s, and it took me many years to get the lupus diagnosis, and only after the affect of heat on my body got so bad I couldn’t even go outside in the summer.
I read that you had tried low carb. I’m on Atkins right now, and only 4 days in, I was so fatigued I had to eat carbs to get through the day. It’s very frustrating, as I have read good things about low carb and CFS, and I’m praying it will help me, even if only temporarily.
Thanks for your blog. I’ll be following you.
Hi Jody! I wanted to say to Deborah that she was experiencing what they call “induction flu” or the Atkins flu. It happens because your body is withdrawing from starch, sugars, caffeine, etc. It can last anywhere from a few days to a few weeks. It is a necessary evil to endure while your body switches from burning carbs for energy to burning ketones, a byproduct of fat burning. Once your body adjusts, you should experience more energy. Hope this helps!
Barbara,
Thanks for your comment. That is excellent advice, it is right on.
I found you on facebook, corts new page phoneix rising and Mike Dessin’s page, I have seen you. I am in Toronto. love your site, I was wondering who built it for you. mine is to get me medical neurological care I have been denied. I have blog, the website may be beyond me, the webmaster didn’t do what I needed, I worsened alot. http://cherylspeaksout.blogspot.com
I bed/houseconfined, and looking at your doctor as well, I saw u said u just had a bad crash again I always am now becuase of all bdoyd damaged from medications and movement disorrders left here not on medical reocrds.
I need doctor inhouse, and want neural-natturalpath MD, all mixed together like Mike had, so looking slow as able. my medical records are so badly falsified, until I can get them correct I don’t know anyone would take me, let alone in house.
I keep the faith, hope. it gets low some days and I have to have someone keep me alive.
I emailing ur natural path see if they know anyone in my area
healing blessings to you
namaste
cheryl
Hi Cheryl,
I am so sorry to hear how bad things have been for you.
My husband built my website and started up my blog for me.
I would recommend that you focus on finding a naturopath, I got no help that made a difference from conventional medicine. But my naturopath has been helping me heal, focusing on building up my immune system, and decreasing its toxic load.
We dealt with food sensitivities that were keeping me sick, and supplements that helped to build my immune system. It has been working for me. It is slow but I am getting better.
Please continue to have faith and to have hope that things will improve. There is help out there.
I send out my hope for your healing to you.
Jody
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