Jody’s Blog . . . a life after chronic fatigue syndrome

Thursday, June 4, 2009 

I didn’t drive my daughter to work this morning because I wasn’t feeling too well.

Both girls have nasty colds, and I think I’ve caught it from one of them. Or both of them? 

Mine isn’t as bad as theirs. 

Interestingly enough, since CFS, I don’t generally get bad colds.

I’ll have cold — or flu — symptoms for a few days, and then usually they disappear.

Then full-blown CFS symptoms will take over for a month or two. 

This pattern seems to be changing though. I think maybe, and I say it cautiously, maybe I am getting better in that department. 

Meanwhile, I feel crappy. 

I worked on a couple of other writing projects, that are nothing to do with Ncubator or CFS. I am trying to spread my wings a bit, see how far I can go. 

That took me through to dinner time, and I picked our daughter up from work at 6:00.

I needed a break from the computer. Needed to breathe some fresh air, get out of the house. Out of my busy brain. 

After dinner I worked on some articles for Ncubator, two new ones posted tonight, though dated for the 5th. It is after all, almost midnight.

I could not have done the amount and the type of juggling that I’m doing now, a year ago. I would have had a 2 month crash about a month back.

It’s slow going and enormously frustrating, but I am getting better. 

“I am getting better … I am getting better … I am getting better …” I know it sounds like a mantra, or maybe more like a broken record.

But it’s on my mind all the time and I need to hang on to the hope, every moment that I can, that I will be able to some day walk away from all this.

I am getting better.