Jody's June Blog
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Tuesday, June 16, 2009
It's really only a few hours since my last post, but technically, it's the 16th since it's after midnight.:-)
Forgot to mention I posted a new article on EmpowHer.com, called "Chronic Fatigue Syndrome : Happy Anniversary You're Going to the Hospital, Part 1". A mouthful of a title, but I need to get the name of my condition in there.
In a few days I'll post Part 2. Between the two of them, they are more or less the same as an article already on Ncubator called "Happy Anniversary You're Going to the Hospital". (I know, still a long title, but it has a certain something, don't you think?)
Articles for EmpowHer need to be 300 words or less. On Ncubator, they can be as long as I want them to be. :-) So, the baby had to be cut in half. I don't mind though. I love being able to post there. Most of the exposure my stuff gets is from EmpowHer.com.
Monday, June 15, 2009
I posted 2 new articles on Ncubator tonight. They are, per usual, dated for the next day, as it's late in the evening (at least in my part of the world) by the time they went up. I think they should have a whole day.:-)
"The Great Grain Debate" and "Omega 3 Oil Eases the Pain" are about some important factors in my gradual recovery. Some of these things take an inordinate amount of time and unfortunately it was not possible, at least in my case, to predict how long healing takes or how far healing will take someone with CFS.
It's funny now, wasn't at the time -- Almost 2 years ago, in July 2007, I began to have less haze and static. I still was vibrating most of the time but it didn't get in my way so much, sometimes. I thought, I am almost healed. :-) I should be all better in like -- a month?
Instead I had a 2 month crash, because I didn't know how to pace myself in this new envelope and un-paced myself right into the ground. I was SOME sick that time.
Live and learn. It will take longer than you think it will. Objects in the mirror are further away, in this case, than they appear.
But one thing is for certain, I believe, and that is that when I started regularly avoiding things that are toxic for me and ingesting things that are healthy for me, the only direction had to be up. (This was, at least, my hopeful and wistful logic.) For me, it seems to be true, long dreary haul though it has been.
I got to be the way I was in part because of various toxins that my body couldn't handle anymore. An immune system too overloaded trying to keep the assorted enemies at bay. A digestive system more than likely thrown out of whack by things like Candida and other bacteria, hypersensitive to many foods, and not absorbing much in the way of nutrition ....
You have just read the meanderings my mind takes, prompted by my articles about grains and omega 3 oil.:-)
Thursday, June 11, 2009
I've posted 2 new articles on Ncubator tonight. And EmpowHer.com has posted Parts 1 and 2 of my "Naturopathic Help for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome" this week. Very gratifying.
More people on my Facebook page. I am foolishly pleased with this. :-) Not that it's foolish to be pleased about it, but rather to be THIS pleased, well ... Chalk it up to living in the barrens socially for a heck of a long time. How great to be able to be in touch with people with just the click of a keyboard.
I have undertaken some more writing commitments on the net this week and am happy to find that my energy level is maintaining nicely. And my pleasure in life has been increasing.
Half of me may be a solitary lone wolf (and it is) but the other half, equally, is a very social creature. Starve it and ... well, it goes hungry.
So I've been feeding the beast. :-)
Monday, June 8, 2009
I went to see my naturopath Dr. Kelly today. She did acupuncture on me as she does every month. We talked about my progress recently.
When I first started seeing her, two years ago, I would be bedridden for the next day or so after a visit, from the exertion. But today I drove myself there :-) and waltzed in and out, not only under my own steam, but without feeling like I might fall or bump into anything.
I felt good. :-)
I did NOT have to go to bed when I got home. That's been the way of it for some months now but I will never take that energy and freedom for granted.
I applied for a writing gig online, had some lunch, and then rested for awhile. Read a book. Watched a soap opera. Nodded off for awhile around 4:30, I confess. :-)
I have a Facebook page now. Learned how to put my picture on it. Pretty pleased with myself about that as I am NOT technologically inclined. And there is a little stuff on there now.
I got a reply from an old friend who's on Facebook, who used to write for my dear old Ncubator.com years ago. Very nice.
Today I sent an article to EmpowHer.com where they post some of my articles. Wonderful site, and wonderful exposure that I would not have right now without them. Hopefully it will be up tomorrow sometime.
Tonight I posted two more articles to this site, Ncubator.ca, one called "I Don't Look Sick" and the other "Shoes Make the Difference -- Sometimes".
I love how this stuff does NOT wear me out anymore.
I found Cort Johnson's Forums on his site Phoenix Rising, the other day. It has members already, but they are too shy (or perhaps too ill?) to post anything much yet. Cort has started a number of threads, and I have written some. It's a good spot, for anybody who is interested in forums. There is a link to it, on my homepage here, under Resources. I invite you to go over there and look around, and maybe post some stuff.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
I didn't drive my daughter to work this morning because I wasn't feeling too well. Both girls have nasty colds, and I think I've caught it from one of them. Or both of them?
Mine isn't as bad as theirs.
Interestingly enough, since CFS, I don't generally get bad colds. I'll have cold -- or flu -- symptoms for a few days, and then usually they disappear. Then full-blown CFS symptoms will take over for a month or two.
This pattern seems to be changing though. I think maybe, and I say it cautiously, maybe I am getting better in that department.
Meanwhile, I feel crappy.
I worked on a couple of other writing projects, that are nothing to do with Ncubator or CFS. I am trying to spread my wings a bit, see how far I can go.
That took me through to dinner time, and I did pick Sarah up from work at 6:00. I needed a break from the computer. Needed to breathe some fresh air, get out of the house. Out of my busy brain.
After dinner I worked on some articles for Ncubator, two new ones posted tonight, though dated for the 5th. It is after all, almost midnight. :-)
I could not have done the amount and the type of juggling that I'm doing now, a year ago. I would have had a 2 month crash about a month back. It's slow going and enormously frustrating, but I am getting better.
"I am getting better ... I am getting better ... I am getting better ..."
I know it sounds like a mantra, or maybe more like a broken record. But it's on my mind all the time and I need to hang on to the hope, every moment that I can, that I will be able to some day walk away from all this.
I am getting better. :-)
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Technically I'm writing about June 2, but I'm writing it after midnight, so let's call it the 3rd.
This morning was chilly and clammy. I usually have a sluggish engine on days like this and today was no exception.
I drove my daughter to work, didn't take long, as she works in town. I dropped off a book at the library drop box, and thought I'd go for a walk since I was already out. But the wind was blowing and I didn't have a jacket. After a block I decided this was a lousy idea and headed back to the car. Home I went, back into the warm house.
As the day cleared up, so did I. As usual.
I wrote a million emails, and posted two articles to Ncubator, sent out my notification emails. Wrote the beginnings of a few more articles. Some days I have something to say and some days I don't. Today, I had a surprisingly fertile field. :-)
Ncubator is a month old today. It's been growing much faster, and has gotten much more exposure than I could ever have expected thus far. What a great new toy. And what great therapy for me. And people seem to like it. That is a bonus.
Jesse was up all night last night. That hadn't been happening for awhile but we will try not to worry too much. He is still stronger and steadier and clearer than he's been in a long time. He will sleep again.
Hopefully, tonight.
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