Hibernation
Posted: under January, 2010.
Tags: CFS, hibernation, insular, regenerating, renewal, rest Comments (5)
Sunday, January 3, 2010
During the winter, CFS seems to close in on me in a way that was not happening during the warmer months.
I am not as ill as I was last winter, but the day to day habits of my life become more closed in and insular.
While I don’t have the distressing neurological symptoms from before, my energy level is lower. And I find that a certain … hibernation mode seems to be what comes naturally. I liken it to the flowers and trees that cease to bloom; the animals that go to their nests; even my cat spends more time in the house sleeping.
I try to view this as a time of rest, waiting for the renewal of spring. Conserving energy. Regenerating.
It is a bit frightening, as it feels at times like I am failing (waning, not losing) at life. The strides forward of last spring and summer are mostly put on hold for now. I don’t go out. I don’t have any desire to.
But I remind myself that this hibernation, the time spent in bed reading again — something I left behind last summer being so busy with other things — is from choice this time rather than necessity. It is so that I will have the needed energy for my freelance writing, for my friendships on the net, for my family.
And it is so that when the warm weather comes again, I will be ready for it …
I hope …
Tags: CFS, hibernation, insular, regenerating, renewal, rest
Yes, I find the same thing. I always need much more sleep in winter and find I have very little interest in doing anything beyond what is absolutely necessary. I have to keep telling myself to keep contact with friends even if I am not joining in activities so that when my energy returns, I won’t have to start rebuilding relationships.
What a facinating blog. I’ve bookmarked it and added your feed to my RSS Reader
Don’t be too hard on yourself. Take care and take your time resting. That way you’ll be ready for the warm weather!
I suggest to try meditation because this can help in lessening stress and tensions. By the way, cool blog!
Thank you all for your comments.
As you can see, I am still recovering from my last crash. But I’d rather respond late than not at all.