Jesse's New Room

Sometimes improvement comes very slowly, and other times it seems to burst forth all of a sudden.
Like the cliche about the over-night success who usually had put in years of sluggin' away in obscurity and finally springs to light, the various factors that improve health have been quietly going on below our awareness, until "suddenly" better health makes itself felt.
Something like this has just happened to Jesse.
His sleep has been getting just a little better, so now he only will have one night without sleep, but not two in a row as was the case before.
His energy is just a bit better, his stamina just a bit stronger, his mental clarity just a bit steadier.
And, to help bring Life into better focus for him, he has a new room.
He has moved into a bigger bedroom with better light, and more storage space. This has interwoven with his stronger health, to give him a gleam in his eye and a smile on his lips.
In his small bedroom, he had a computer and a TV, and alot of teenage paraphernalia. With his bed and dresser, computer table and chair, there was precious little room to turn around. If a person wasn't an invalid to start with a room like this could make them feel like one. There was almost no choice but to be in bed if he was going to be in his room.
But now, he has space for a desk and chair, for a dresser, maybe two. And this room has a phone jack so he has his own phone.
Al and I were hoping that being in a bigger space would have a good impact on his well-being. So far it seems to be working out that way.
He is thinking about looking for a part time job. I'm pleased that his mind is heading that way because that tells me he is feeling stronger, and also more positive, and more a part of life.
I think, personally, he should take a few months at least though.
I remember feeling the same way as he seems to be feeling, about 2 years ago. I was starting to feel human again and assumed full health was around the corner.
It wasn't. I overdid things, and had a two month crash.
This doesn't mean the same thing would happen to him. But I am cautious and would rather see him take longer, and be more solid than to go into things prematurely and have to pay for it.
These, happily, are very different quandaries than we were experiencing up till now. Before it was, how can we get food into him? How can we get him built up so he can stand up without feeling like he's going to fall down. And like that.
So we still deal with issues and questions, decisions that need to be made and not being sure how to make them. But I definitely prefer this new arena of uncertainty to the old one.

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